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Snow Flowers

It was the week of Easter (2018), and I was outside taking pictures of snow flakes, a new hobby of mine. As I was taking pictures and enjoying the different flakes, I began thinking about the upcoming weekend and the true reason for the season.  Easter is the weekend we celebrate the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ our Lord. It the weekend we remember that He died on the cross for our sins so that we may enjoy eternity with Him, forever.

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Finding Hope in My Grief (part 2b)

(This post picks up exactly where the previous post ended)  I told Brian that I wanted to name our children.  I know that we don’t know if they are girls, boys, or one of each, but each month I had a mommy sense of what I would be carrying, I went on that for naming my children (I have been right with both my known boys, too).  I also believe that it doesn’t matter necessarily what I name them because God gave them new names in Heaven, along with those new spiritual bodies. (Revelation 2:17 “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.  To him who overcomes I will give some of the hidden manna to eat.  And I will give him a white stone, and on the stone a new name written which no one knows except him who receives it. (NKJV)) 

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Finding Hope in My Grief (part 2a)

In one sentence, Brian I have two children who are now our brothers and/or sisters in Heaven with Jesus.  That’s how I have to grieve.  I have to grieve with hope.  I believe that our babies, that we never got to meet or even really connect with here on earth, are in the precious sight of Jesus Christ right now.  They are enjoying a heavenly life that I only get to imagine.  Not only that, they are no longer my children, they are truly God’s children and my siblings in Him.  I have a wait for them, but they have no wait for me.  They are focused on Jesus and that which is being prepared for all Christ’s saints.  They each have a home in heaven that God prepared for them before I get to see mine.  My kiddos are in the best hands any parent could ask for.

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2 Heaven Bound Babies and 1 on the Way (part 1)

We sure have had an interesting year of life.  We have the wonderful news of announcing the coming of a baby boy this October! His name is to be determined still.  At the same time, I am finally ready to open up about the two babies that we also have who are in Heaven today.  We are, in the earthly sense, planning to be a family of 4 soon, but in the heavenly, eternal sense, we are a family of 6.  We are very excited for our new bundle of joy that is being knit together by God and arriving in a few short months.  

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Checking Off Rooms


We are finally getting to that point inside the house to check off rooms completely finished with renovations!  It has felt like every time I thought we were getting close to checking off a room, we needed to complete another task in there or made a mess of something else.  We have finally finished the kid’s room and basement area for school, play, and my hobbies.  

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I have a pretty vivid and active imagination.  It can keep me up at night quite often, if allowed.  One thing that I have enjoyed about my imagination since I was young, is the ability to imagine life with Christ standing next to me or another person in the room.  I remember going to a Dare 2 Share event as a freshman and watching a movie about the spiritual battle that is all around us, yet we can’t see it.  But, what if we could see that battle?  What if we could get a glimpse of the other side for a moment to see the angels fighting for good and evil?  That was a main purpose of the video, to help us imagine what was really going on all around.  Since that video, my imagination has gotten stronger with picturing what is going on around me from Christ’s point of view.

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Praising God through the Storms


It has been a quiet brain week.  However, on Wednesday I went to the doctor and got some sad news.  On my way home, I was listening to my Ipod and Casting Crowns, ‘Praise You in this Storm,’ came on (of course I am sure God hit the playlist button and picked this song out particularly).  I haven’t listened to this song in quite sometime.  It was very good to hear it, especially as I had been crying the past 20 minutes.  It was very on spot for the time though.  Brian and I have experienced many storms through the past several months, but now we are entering a storm we haven’t been in yet.  We are dealing with a storm that is so solely God’s.  Even if we wanted to do something about it, we can’t.  I can’t change what the doctor said.  I can’t do anything about the situation, but trust God.

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